Changes

For those of you who don’t know, in October, we were let go by the CMA, our sending organization to Mali. It came as a shock to us, our team, and the Malians we work with. The reasons were vague at best and honestly we still don’t understand why there had to be a complete break. We feel as though we are a foster child that (unknowingly) became too difficult and thus was sent back to the orphanage without warning while all the while we thought we were part of a family, that even if things were tough, we’d work them out together. To say that this has been a shock would be an understatement. This is the greatest loss Brett and I have jointly shared as a couple. (We’ve lost loved ones, but it has always been harder on one of us than the other. This, however, has knocked both of us to the core). We are grieving a tremendous loss. I actually went to bed the first night after being fired wondering how I would even get up and start the next day. I couldn’t imagine doing it when everything I hoped and dreamed for had just been lost.

BUT.

His mercies are new every morning.

He is faithful.

He is good.

He has surrounded us with His love.

He is our shelter, our refuge. There are days when His presence and love for me has been so real and present that it felt like His arms were physically around me.

He is HOPE.

He is grace and mercy.

He is all we need.

So we move forward with this knowledge, trusting that His plan is greater.